I feel the need to give you all an update on what’s been occurring in my life, hence why I haven’t been blogging much.
For the past two weeks I’ve had so many strange feelings enter and exit my body along with the addition of a distant feeling from Our Creator. I had to focus more on Him and ask Him what was possibly going wrong with my life. Trust me, this was done more dramatically then it sounds. I had relationships to figure out, doubts that needed to be smashed to smithereens, people I needed to let go and habits that needed demolishing. Father, can you hear me?
Of course He can and has been intercepting when things seemed as if they would go wrong. It all started clearing up when I relied more on God and spoke to Him as if He’s my Creator AND Father instead of thinking I should try to fix everything myself. I was doing more bible studies, watching sermons, random internal prayers, social media fasts, and sometimes just aiming to enjoy the things I used to enjoy more as a kid (for e.g. Anime).
One evening as the sun was setting, I turned all the lamps off in my bedroom and let the orange-pink aura highlight my room. I sat on my bed and let everything out to God. From the smallest shred of doubt to the biggest, the littlest worry and fear to the most colossal.
Not only did it feel great to let everything seep out of my system but I’m sure God was pleased in the growth of our relationship. The very next day I saw big changes. My mother got a job offer and it filled her with so much hope she sprung tears of thankfulness. I had (and still have) this new-found happiness, bubbliness, and joy that only could mean I am filled with the Holy Spirit. My mindset has changed drastically, discernment is now a quality I possess. God’s voice is much clearer and audible to me. I can differentiate from who speaks to me the Father, Son, or Holy Spirit. It may sound crazy to many but this is very true: God speaks to us all the time. He told me what to do when I had no clue and no comprehension; I followed His voice and found happiness from being a servant and daughter of the Most High. This is freedom. This is a relationship with God, the Almighty.